rip robin williams.

with the death of robbin williams it hit home. not just because he was a great actor. also a funny guy. .
   i loved mork and mindy. that may have been one of my first fandoms. i had a mork doll with plastic egg. i just remember being glued to the tv when he and  johnitian winters got going as gather and son.
    he struggled with depression which is something i have struggled with all my life. this feeling of never feeling good enough. never mesuring up too this line you put out that in your mind screams succsess. the problum is that line is so unrealistic. when someone subcomes to the presure to depresion hurts. someone lost tthe battle.
   he was also bipolor.. so it feels like i lost someone im my community.  this illness ties us togetheras one. . the thing about people with a illness like bipolor. we feel helpless snd hopeless. even thought we useully have a large group of people who call us friend. we tended to be very closed off. trust is something we deal out lightly. at 63 he was young. noone should take there own life ever. but its a daily battle. at 40 i fight the battle of suicide . its a monster that i belive can only be slain but the truth of jesus christ. for me thats friends who help  fight for me. its god giving me imagination outlets like doctor who or marvel comics. that shos my brain there ste better things out there.  it is a battle thst can be won.